- I lost a baby in 2009. It was horrific at the time. My turning point was when God gave me peace that my “mommy” days were not over but just changing. I had no idea what that meant. I assumed it just meant I was going on to the next phase in my “mommy” life of having big kids and doing big kid things. Well, that’s not exactly what He meant.
He meant I was going to go back to work full-time outside the home. He meant I was going to pass the full-time teaching of our littles over to dad. It meant moving 1,000 miles away from family and friends and all I knew for the last 30 years. I’m so glad I didn’t understand what He meant because I would not have been at peace about all the changes He had planned.
My peace came in a vision one day while I was changing a load of laundry. I saw a little toddler looking up at me with love and happiness in her eyes. God promised me a baby girl! He formed her in her bio-mother’s womb and saved her by name for me.
That little girl I saw is growing up in my home right now! The little girl I saw that day is the one our little girl is growing into. I didn’t see the little 6-month old we took in as a foster child 22 months ago. I saw who she is becoming – possibly what she will look like on adoption day in a few days. The baby that we lost and Jesus is holding now will forever be in our hearts. She was named Maddie Rose (after both great grandmothers).
Just recently we had another “God moment.” We were looking at the court order of when to appear before the judge to petition for adoption. On those pages our little one’s second middle name (she currently has two) was written – Rose! Since she has a rather long first name we never paid much attention to her middle names on the original paperwork.
Just another reminder that God is in control of EVERYTHING and He has a plan if we simply listen and follow Him with all our hearts. I love when He allows us to see how much He cares for the “little” things.
Because He is always good, all the time,